I’ve done and said everything
That I could,
But it still is not enough for you.
I don’t know exactly
What you want me to say.
I’m sorry that I’m difficult,
And I never can just agree;
I have to have the last word.
I’m sorry that I’m so stubborn,
And I fight tooth and nail,
Even when you think I’m wrong.
I’m sorry that I’m so indecisive,
And I can never make up my mind,
Maybe even about you.
I’m sorry that I shut down so easily,
And I go for days without speaking,
Or even getting out of bed.
I’m sorry I am this way
But there’s nothing I can do to change it;
I don’t know how to be any other way.
I’ve screamed apologies until
My throat was raw and my voice
And even then
My mouth whispered around the words.
And it’s still not enough.
|—||There’s nothing left to say // -STG (inksplatteredpages)|